Should I Stay or Should I Go...

My parents are getting really, really annoying. I have seriously done nothing wrong and they are treating me like i'm some child that has gone onto the wrong side of the tracks. I went to a gig last night with cas and i got home at 11 and they are still getting all up me for going out. They think that i'm such a bad 'child'. Simply because I go out occassionally, that must mean that I am a bad person. Forget that I am at uni studying Law/commerce and am doing bloody well too.

My sister walked in this morning and forewarned me that my parents are going to ask me whether I am going to stay at home or move out. I have been thinking about it for a while because I knew that it would come down to this eventually. I would not hesitate to move out if it were that easy. I would be alot happier. But this is reality - Firstly, I can't afford to move out. Secondly, It would be burdenous on my younger sister who relys on my computer for her work. I think that if things remain the same though and I have the money, I will move out. And once I do move out I think that I will probably resent them for a very long time.

Thats all I have to say at this moment -

Sarorth.

Tweedle De...

I'm so bored. Yep, that was worth mentioning. Today I spent the day with Laura. First we went to UQ. The pizza shop wasnt opened yet so I showed her the Red Room and we had a game of snooker. I won...yay. Well it was somewhat of a fluke seeing as i'm not I really good at snooker/pool. Well actually i suck. After we finished the game we went and had pizza. We ordered the Panotti [i have no idea what it was called but it started with P]. That was a really filling pizza, a bit too greasy though...we could barely finish it all. So after that we took the city cat to Southbank and then walked across the Goodwill bridge. We walked even more and ended up at the Riverside. We sat down for a while and just had a chat about uni [we haven't even started and we're talking about uni]. Then we kept walking and ended back at the city. Laura then left at 3:00 to go meet her mum and sister and i was left alone. I did a bit of shopping around and then took a bus to go to Garden City. It was a really tiring day. I spent more money than i should have. I am really going to make an effort to save, I need to buy textbooks and pay for our fees. Oh thats much to look forward too. I sure do miss having to spend $400 on textbooks. WEll thats all i have to report on. I'm off now to be bored by myself again. Actually i think i might watch TV - yay for me! haha. aaarrrgh i'm really going now.

Ummm yeah...

Well what have I been up since the last post? Not much. I went over to Cas's house today to give her money for the gig that we are going to on Friday. I am really looking forward to it. That was pretty much it...haha. In actuality I stayed over for a fair bit just catching up - her cat, U-Me has grown up now, no longer that small kitten. She's kinda mellowed out too, didn't get a scratch from her this time. Yes, today was that kind of day where we kinda just lounged around and did nothing [yes cas, checking your emails doesn't count for doing something. hahahaha]. I totally feel like painting but I really hate cleaning up. I'm so lazy. I just bought some new acrylics and brushes the other day - totally an impulse buy, and a bad one at that seeing as i go to uni very soon and need to save. Okay, i have to go now. More like i want to go. I'm boring myself, that's not a good thing.

Ciao

No, No, No...

I went up north to Scarborough today, it took 2hours to get there. We did a little op shopping, We both bought a scarf and I bought four old school EP's that i'm gonna stick on my wall. Then we went to the beach and swam for a little [well it was more like dodging the waves]. It was funny...we looked liked two drunkards. I was going to post more detail but i'm going to divert the topic to something more interesting. What could be more interesting? Well...er, arranged marriages. Before I begin going on my rant I would like to make it clear that I oppose it. Well i more than oppose it - I believe that it is not only degrading but an attack on dignity and freedom of choice. Why would i bring up such a subject? Where would anything bad in my life start?...my mother of course. I have little respect for that woman. So many, many things that she has done in our lives that have been wrong. I won't say, because doing so would require not only myself to get a therapist but also you. Yes, it's so shocking that you, yourself, my humble readers will be traumatised. So i exaggerate a bit, but still, who does that to their own kids? Who in their right mind would 'sell' their kids off? [In reality...many people do, in some countries its customary and arranged marriages are held in the highest regard - but i'm not living in those countries...and it's not a part of my custom]

All those people who complain about how much their parents suck - think of my situation and you will realise that your parents don't suck as much as you think [i couldnt think of any better word than 'suck' for this little rant - it does sound a wee bit stupid - i am well aware!].

Sarorth, telling you I am not for sale - and if you think I am...well screw you!

Hindsight is good...

Geez that last post was quite lame! Anyways I really don't have much really to post about. It's a really hot day and I spent most of the time laying on my bed listening to music and drinking juice. I don't know what my parents think of me going out - but thats not going to stop me in the future. It's the holidays...an darn-it, i'm going to have as much fun as i can. They threatened to kick me out of the house if i didnt come home early the other day. But lucky for them, I wasn't in the mood to stay out late anyways [plus Cas bailed out on us - yeah, yeah, its not your fault...but still]. We'l see though. Hmmm what else is there for me to post about? I don't have an interesting life, so posts tend to go from interesting to pretty lame. I'm looking forward to tomorrow, spending time with Laura at the beach up at Scarborough. It's so relaxing there - plus, we've been meaning to catch up for a while. I guess i'l tell you all about it soon.

Okay, thats all for today.

Many many many things on my mind...

I'm going to simply post as a list because I am mentally exhausted. There are many things on my mind at this moment:

1. Last night was not as great as it could have been. I had a feeling it would be that way though. Plus I felt pretty sick and tired. We watched an emo dance really funny. I dont know how to describe it...his hands were flailing around in the air and kept lifting and kicking his legs outwards. Ran into Wynne, John & Tiani. The main purpose of last night? Pinh wanted to see Wynne.
2. Hanging out with the girls during the day was the best part of yesterday. Just watching Russell Peter [an Indian-Canadian comedian] on the computer was definitely a highlight - we all laughed pretty hard [and loud]
3. Pinh snores
4. Music
5. My parents arent so happy about last night - got a lecture from dad but couldnt really hear him because of no.4. I wonder what else they have in store for me.
6. How interesting Sinead O'connor is
7. I shouldn't have watched her video clip 'Nothing Compares To You' because now i feel pretty sad
8. I wish i had some musical talent
9. How lame this post is starting to sound
10. Its all over

Thats pretty much all i have to say. Now i'm going to flail my hands around in the air and kick my legs around.

The death of language...

I must say, these holidays have been pretty good. I haven't been so much of a cabbage. I'm looking forward to going back to university though. It wouldn't be so bad if i were spending more time with friends but I stay home way too much and feel like my brain is decaying. At home, i have no one to converse with about intellectual topics...or any topics for that matter. I'd probably bore them to death or they just wouldn't understand what I was talking about...or care what i was talking about. It's very much like that - they dump all their woes on me and i listen. I speak not, unless required to. I guess that would be okay, aside from the fact that i have nothing to say about what they tell me. My younger sister called me a 'faget' today. Lovely word isn't it. Obviously it doesn't affect me but does she not realise the connotations attached to that word? It's offensive and seriously, there are other words you could use. Like maybe call me a nimrod, idiot, loser - It still doesnt affect me but at least they are words that Could apply to me. At the end of the day its not just rhetoric. Words have meaning. They have history and implications.

Well thats my rant for today. Intellectual or not, i really dont care. I'm just saying what needs to be said.

It's all about the music baby!

SO today I was a very mellow me. I woke up at 11 - which means i slept for 10 hours. I think i overcompensated for the 5 hours i had yesterday. I got up and had breakfast/lunch [cold pasta...ummm yummy]. Filled out the licence renewal form for my mum and then got dressed and took the bus to the local shops. Ran into my mum at Coles - talk about luck [not!]. But i told her i was just gonna take the bus home cause she wanted to go home soon and i just got there. I was looking for a gift bag for Sophans present. I can finally give it to her tomorrow. Anyways i also bought two packs of hair dye - cost me over $30, which is really bad because Im eating up all my savings. I then took the bus back home at 2:25 and got my ipod and listened to music until 5:50. I only got off my bed four times - first to get some coke and ice and then to go to pee twice [you guys totally didnt need to know that...haha] and the last time was to go eat dinner. It was a really good day - i had a listen to some of the music that Cas suggested to me and i wrote up the list for her. I'm just going to write it on this blog because it's easier for me [I say if there is a hard way to do things, there must also be an easy way, haha].

NOTE: They're not a list of my favourite songs - just songs that you should have a listen to. And also the list is not very long because I know you already have most of the songs that I have.

1. Ain't Got No I Got Life - Nina Simone
2. Are You The One - The Presets
3. Crazy Love - Harry Manx
4. Mia's Mouse - The Presets
5. Shiney Happy People - REM
6. The Drugs Don't work - The Verve
7. Mr Writer - Stereophonics
8. Strange Fruit - Nina Simone
9. Since I Feel For You - Dinah Washington
10. Smooth Operator - Sade [I got it off Fun With Dick And Jane-so, so lame of me. haha]
11. Not A Lot To Do - The Zutons
12. Even - Kenny G & Aaron Neville [Off the Bodyguard - you know you love the movie!]
13. Fast Car - Tracy Chapman
14. Feeling Good - Nina Simone
15. When You're Smiling [The Whole World Smiles With You] - Louis Armstrong
16. Here I Dreamt I Was an Architect - The Decemberists
17. This Years Love - David Gray
18. Losing My Religion - REM
19. Nothing Compares To You - Sinead O'Connor [I loved her when i was in primary school - My friend gave me her Cassette. The Good ol' days.]
20. If I Could Change The World - Eric Clapton
21. Somebody That I Used To Know - Elliott Smith [one of his less depressing songs]
22. Blue Train - John Coltrane [famous Jazz musician...just instrumentals though]
23. Don't It Make My Brown Eyes Blue - Jolene Parsons [it's a bit country but i like it for some reason]
24. Nice Dream - Radiohead [you may already have this one]
25. Kissing the Lipless - The Shins [i love the beginning]
26. Polly Wolly Doddle - Shirley Temple [hahaha-this one is a classic i tell ya!]
27. Revelator - Gillian Welsh [Ben Lee and Missy Higgins love this song]
28. The Start Of Something - Voxtrot
29. It Ain't Over Til Its Over - Lenny Kravitz
30. Girls Just Wanna Have Fun - Cyndi Lauper [hahahahaha - so true, so true!]

WELL, there you go. I managed to come up with a list of 30. Didn't think i'd make it. And yeah, I know some are just shockers. But I couldnt come up with anything better so these are the ones you're stuck with!

First and last experience of the GOLD Coast

WEll as all of you guys are aware I was at the GOLD Coast last night. We were invited to a girls birthday celebration - at first we weren't going to go but then pinh decided that she would like to go too seeing as her friends were also invited. She drove us there...First we went to her friends place to go and pick someone up so they could drive for her [which obviously didnt happen]. We ended up staying for a little while because they werent changed yet. We didnt end up getting to the coast til 11. First we went up to the Aegean Apartments where they were having their party...we just sat down and talked and laughed at the drunk antics of this guy. It was good to see Sophan - last time i spoke to her was at her 19th birthday [which is pretty bad considering she just lives down the road from me]. She was pretty surprised to see us three there after i texted her to let her know we couldnt make it. But it all worked out in the end. So after having a few shots and some spring rolls and mini-muffins most of us [about 10 people] went to Shooters [classy name i must say].

First impressions? Packed - really packed! We avoided the cover charge though because one of the guys knew someone who worked there. That was a really good thing seeing as i only had $20 and pinh no money whatsoever and cas had none on her. We couldnt find an ATM either. Anyways getting inside - it really stunk of vomit, it was really unpleasant. The music was just not happening either, i'm not the trancing, laser lights, fog machine type. At one stage, Cas and myself were just sitting on these little seats and talking about how much we preferred the local pubs. We are the talking type and this was not a talking place. Also, the guys were so sleasy...and so were some of the girls. Oh we did dares again. We cant get enough of those dares can we? - WEll its a good laugh. MY one was to dance with some asian guy who was dancing really, really funny. He was really into the trance thing - thank god though, it would have been more embarrassing if he actually knew that i was imitating him. Pinh's one was to go on those platforms and dance - it took her half an hour just to finally do it. I think Cas's one was worst though, she had to dance with this guy who stalked [well not really, but he kept inching closer and closer - ] her for a while. He asked her to dance with him - note: he was a bit of a loser and just a wee bit desperate. She told him that she was just dancing with us but he kept persisting so she just gave that to him and said that was her dare. So just a little bit after that, we went home. pin wanted to stay a bit longer but it was 3am and we agreed to leave after two songs.

WEll that was so uninteresting - i'm not feeling the effects, didnt have much to drink seeing as i didnt have much money on me and it was just not really happening. Just a little bit tired - didnt get home til about 4 and was woken up at 9 this morning from all the noise made by my family.

OH and i didnt get your message til i got home Elliott. So as you can tell - it wasnt all that good. I had a feeling though, didnt really believe you when you said it was good. The tone in your voice really gave it away. But anyways, i think il just stick to the local pubs/bars. I guess it saves us the one hour drive as well.

Big Night...What's More to Say!

Last night turned out to be a pretty big night. At first we were only supposed to go to the hyperdome just to shop around. Cas brought some of the stuff that we did during highschool - It's funny how we managed to still get into uni with all our mucking around. Anyways i thought the funniest thing would have had to be the card that we made her for her 16th birthday. I think we did it up on paint and it had a dodgy graphic of supposedly her with bogers and only a couple of teeth. It just looks funny - maybe one day il take a photo of it and post it for all the world to see. We just sat on the chairs for a little while laughing at the stupid things that we wrote.

SOOOOO the shopping around thing kinda died out and then Cas suggested a movie - that didnt eventuate though for some reason or another. Instead we ended up going to Fitzys again. We were only supposed to stay there for a little while but somehow managed to stay until 1:40...i guess we were too into it to want to go home. Oh and we ran into more people from our old highschool - Dale, Mark, Jesse [again], Brendan, Stephen, Jamie and ummm K-K and Adam and also some girls from the grade below us - So we ended up hanging around Dale and Mark [Jesse and Stephen on and off] for the whole night, they were good for looking after our stuff i must say. Ah yeah - still kinda feeling the effects of all the vodka and rum i had. Allergies aren't so bad so thats a plus side. I have a feeling that i may be in a little bit of a pickle with my parents though because i said i was going to the movies. They just got over the camping trip too. And the thing is - i have to go to a birthday party this saturday at the Gold Coast and also Cas [in her moment] agreed for us to go out next thursday. I'm thinking i should go buy a bottle of antihestamine and also some earphones that completely cut off noise. I will probably be needing them.

Done and done!

Today was a day of sleeping in and sleeping in! I couldnt get to bed last night - had an insomniac episode [doesnt that make sleep deprivation sound alot more appealing?!]. So yeah...i woke up at 11 today, had to cancel my outing with Cas so i could catch up on sleep. I don't know why i couldn't sleep - it might have something to do with my reliance on music. Last night i decided to turn off my ipod before i felt sleepy. So it turns out i never did get sleepy. Why did i do that? Well, because i was annoyed at the fact that somehow i only had 164 songs [over 20+ being podcasts]...they're all back now which im happy about.

IN HAPPIER NEWS, i finished the book 1984. Yay-and it only took me 3months. I started reading it near the end of uni and and have been meaning to finish it for a while now. So i was really determined today to finish it-it took me 3hours to finish the 1/3 of the book that was left. Talk about the feeling of satisfaction. I finally knows what happens [although i must say, i already had a feeling that the story would end that way]. It almost nearly didnt happen when my younger sister came home and started telling me about her day. She got angry at me when i told her to be quiet cause i was trying to finish it - I would have let her tell me everything that happened to her but like i said, i was determined.

So thats what happened to me today - not much. In other news though, turns out that U-Me [Cas's Cat] had to go to the vet today because she took out her stitches (her cat was desexed the other day). Really feel sorry for U-me, they were supposed to take out the stitches today and it should have been over. But she's a strong cat and will no doubt get better soon.

Adios everyone [the little people i know]!

The past was only yesterday...

Okay that sounds probably a bit too poetic but it is totally relevant seeing as this post is a reflection [once again] about my (very short lived) life. I did a little bit of cleaning...well not really - i just went through some old boxes i have. Anyways i found some very interesting things in there. Some really wierd things such as playdoh that i used in a Physics assignment to old letters that i wrote to some people to give once we graduated. So if Joanne, Mandy, Ara and Jessica are reading - its not cause i didnt like you, its just that i couldnt find you. But yeah they were just the basic letters saying that i had a blast in highschool with them and good luck for the future type thing. Sorry Cas, obviously you didn't need one of those letters - I knew i'd be stuck with you for some time yet. haha. I also stumbled on our [well, mainly Pin's and Cas's] miniature book. It made me laugh sooooo much when i read it. I made the book which consists of a series of four smaller books. And then Cas and Pin wrote stories about the other in it. Cas's front cover is below - it deserves a 15+ rating...haha. Its called: 'A Story About An Ugly Bitch Called Sayphinh!'. Aren't we the greatest friends ever! ...everyone was jealous!!! You know they were. We actually 'won' an award on our formal night some corny Friends forever type thing[i wouldnt exactly call it an achievement as such]. Well its something we'l share with the other three girls who won exactly the same thing - I miss those 'Three Teddy Bears', they did make us laugh.

To this day we are still friends - probably not as close as we'd like to be with pin but we'l be meeting this thursday and it should be such a fun night. First time in a while that we have done something where all three of us were there.

A little excerpt from this lovely story...[Written and illustrated by Cassie]

Pin's title: 'The Story of Stoopid Cassie'.

A little excerpt from Pin's story

Yeah its a great read for when you're feeling a little of anything...Sure to make you laugh. I surely did. Anyways-il bring it thursday night with me Cas if you want to see it. We'l all laugh at it together.

Just for laughs...

As images go, it doesn't get much classier than this. Haha. I wasn't going to post this photo cause its quite gross looking but i did it anyways. If you guys havent worked out yet, that is algae - i fell down twice while trying to get out of the rock pool. WE laughed our heads off...it was funny! Australia's funniest home videos funny.

...And a not so funny picture. But man, that rock was so huge! I look so small next to it.

Back in the heart of Texas...

This post has nothing to do with Texas but i thought this post needed a catchy title that would draw in the crowds. Well not really...i just couldnt think of anything else. Anyways getting to the 'real' post...We're back from camping! In actuality we were back on Friday but for some reason Blogger wasnt working to well for a couple of days there - i tried but then just gave up.

Anyways it was a really good couple of days - really relaxing. I invited you guys [well some of you, so its your fault you missed all the excitement, yes, you should be kicking yourselves.]

WE went to the Tamborine Mt Thunderbird Caravan and Camping spot again - this time minus a little baggage. Cas's mum drove us - she always does, i feel so bad. Even though i say thanks, the trip just wouldnt have been possible without her. Anwyas we arrived on Wednesday and set up camp. We put up the tent, a huge tent at that [see below].

Then we just kinda sat on the chairs listening to music from my ipod - it was really relaxing. Us being the lazy folks we are, that was the perfect way to spend the day. haha. Hmm what else happened on the first day...oh we went to the rock pools - at first it was packed and we didnt bother going swimming there but then eventually they went. A trip to the rock pool is not complete if we havent jumped off the rocks.

It was so fun! Umm oh and also something funny happened to us - we realised we didnt have the $3.50 we needed to buy the ice [to keep our food from going off]. I ended up having to ask some guys for 20 cents. Haha it was so funny cause we even looked around the camp site for some money. WE got there - thats all that matters. Oh and we also lit a campfire.

'Dig monkey, dig.' haha - cassie digging our campfire hole. I just had to post it. haha.

Our awesome campfire - but a crappy photo. This is the only campfire photo we took.

On the second day we did practically the same thing...woke up, had breakfast and then headed off. OH we got our ice too. haha. We went to the rock pools for a swim and jumped off the higher rocks this time. It is sooo much fun...you guys should come and jump off too. It was scary at first - i jumped off first and it took me a while just to work out where to jump. But it was the best feeling once i got it over and done with. We ended up jumping off three different rocks [below are the pics of us jumping off the high rocks]. I'd do it all again too. After that we just decided to walk along the stream and follow the rocks. We walked for about 45mins on the rocks - i was slowly following cas who seemed to faster on rocks than on land. haha, you know you are cas. It felt so good to get to this really beautiful spot - it looked like we were deep in the jungle. There was no other way to get there except by walking on the rocks [photos 3 and 4]. After that we went to go mini-golfing and then went back to the campsite and sat on the chairs for a while. Then we went off to go swimming again in their salt water swimming pool - it was nice and relaxing and we talked alot about things.

On the third day we got up at 8 and had to pack up. Then we sat on our chairs and waited for cassies mum to drive us back home. I think ive pretty much covered the main things that have happened.

This post has just taken me 3 [4 including editing]days to complete. I was almost finished when my computer suddenly turned itself off. But I have finished so im just glad that its over - Cas can stop bugging me now, haha.